I don’t know how to explain this... it can only be god but my god wouldn’t lie to me or force me a direction I don’t want to go. And like coming back home I guess it’s a life I have to readjust to. I just think with all the bad shit I didn’t deserve I don’t understand why any god would put me thru that or this or have anything like that to even punish me for. As the victim I’m just really confused.